I am scared and excited

So I seem to be having the worst run of luck ever lately. I just wrote a post that got erased by mistake and now I am rewriting something less funny and more annoyed. Judging from the past 1 and a half months that go will down as the worst months of 2008 for me I am starting to question my chances of success as a business woman. I mean many people say part of succeeding as an entrepreneur is good luck and fate and all that and well honestly my luck seems to have run out.

On Sunday (2 days ago) I was excited beyond belief to be doing this but at the moment I am almost in tears cos my business plan is at a stand still and I cant seem to get a web developer or someone with an internet company to talk to me and help me with my numbers and my revenue projections. So, obviously I really jumped at the idea of a blog because I thought there are so many people in cyber space surely someone will read this and be interested enough to want to speak to me. Plus I just read the Alchemist so I am now a full believer in the universe moving everything to help me reach my goals. This is when I ask myself if I am really totally sane? People that know me are not allowed to answer that question.

My focus group basically told me my idea was too radical and that I have to scale back (which kinda dented my enthusiasm cos adjectives like radical when discussing business ideas are the kiss of death) and I feel like I shud do it the way I envisioned it because that is the best way forward but since wat I want has not been done before it is getting mixed reviews and I find myself having to drag every ounce of excitement out of my soul to keep me revitalized. I am so excited about this because every part of my being tells me that I have hit on something big; but.... There is always a but - I really need a web designer and internet strategist to talk to.